My first experience as a self-published author was taken from me

I had always wanted to feel heard. During one of the most difficult moments in my life, when I lost the one person I wanted to feel heard from. I began to write, and write and write… When the ache in my heart was unable to be soothed after years. I decided to compile all my work into a book, so I could finally close that story book. I had friends and family support me and realized the impact I could make by sharing my work.

I learned about Amazon’s kindle direct publishing program where I was able to finally see my book in a physical form. I was able to share my work with people all around the world with a touch of a button and even be compensated for it. It was a glimpse into becoming a published poet and author.

A dream reserved for folx of higher social economic status, scholars and other industry professionals. Here I was, a young 20-something year old, Latina from South Oxnard – sharing her heart work with the world. I had begun to receive feedback from folx around the world and other local readers when suddenly I received an email that my account was being terminated for copyright. I was confused, as this work was my pain, tears and heartbreak… how could this mistake happen. It was a strange process and without any time to provide any information for consideration – it was over. After further research I learned, this happens very often and there is no way to appeal the decision (I tried anyway).

I mourned, and cried as I felt the opportunity ripped away from me in a matter of seconds. I had so many plans and work I wanted to share but it all came to a pause. Until now I am making the efforts to explore this form of sharing my work through this blog.

Thank you for reading and your condolences for this loss; may we continue writing, reading and connecting ❤